Monday, December 28, 2009

My sister made me do it.

Today, December 28th I got an email from my sister. I had posted a blog on the 29 days of giving site on December 15th and it had been a long time since I post one here. Bev, this blog is for you

December 11-28, 2009

December 11, 2009

I was able to go outside today. The weather has warmed up considerably, the sun was shining and the wind was a gentle cold breeze. I wrapped up my muffler and leapt out into the sunshine. Well, leapt is not quit accurate, I limped out, but in my heart it was a leap.

We went to Wal-Mart. The first thing we did was have lunch. I kind of felt like a little kid I was so excited being out of the house. I chose the high table with the high chairs so that I could see over the partition and watch the people walk by. Our sandwich tasted heavenly. I finished every last bite.

Then we did our shopping. We spent way too much. I was spending like Paul was actually working. We finished up our meager Christmas shopping. My daughter-in-law would like to have some white chocolate chips sent over in the box so I bought those for her. It was sunny and bright when we walked into Wal-Mart. As we headed for home it was still clear, but only the stars were visible in the night sky.

I was very tired when I finally walked back through the door. The return through the door was not quite as triumphant as this afternoon, but I really enjoyed my time out.

We made plans to visit the grandsons and Trina on the 22nd while Ethel is here. Ethel was the lady that lent us the car while Trina was in our house in a hospital bed waiting for Andrew to be born. The boys and Trina have a special place in her heart. We will pick up Kathy the night before and then leave early in the morning for our Christmas visit.

We watched a movie and then checked our email and went to bed.

December 12, 2009

After lunch we left again to drive to Sedalia. That is where the nearest Dollar Tree Store is located. As we drove I drank in the scenery. I was awarded for my constant observation. On a post near the road, as if he had waited for me, was a regal red tail hawk. I love these birds. I saw several more hawks flying.

Both Paul and I are having mobility challenges right now. We made a deal. I would do the shopping at the Dollar Tree and he would run into Wal-Mart and take care of what had to be done in there. Dollar Tree was extremely busy. Their aisles are narrow and crowded, there is not room for two carts to pass with the extra displays that they have placed all over the store. I had to back up into a spot that was wider to allow someone to pass many times. But everyone was smiling. I saw a lady with wonderful lavender dangling earrings. I told her how much I liked her earrings. She told me why she bought them and that they were 15 years old. We had a nice chat in the aisle.

I was totally exhausted by the time I returned to the car. We drove back to town. The car was nice and warm so I was comfortable as Paul shopped. Paul bought some Kentucky Fried Chicken for dinner on the way home.

We ate dinner and it was good. Then Paul put the lights on the TV and I set the Santa on the table. I will finish the Santa scene and put up the nativity scene so it will at least look like Christmas. We get Kathy Monday so we will let her help trim the tree.

December 13, 2009

Today my baby is 32 years old. It really doesn’t seem possible that all those years have passed since Tim was born.

We just couldn’t get up and ready for church this morning. I couldn’t even blame the cold weather. It is clear up to 42, and it feels like 42.

Paul went to choir practice. It was the last one before the program. While he was gone I created the Santa scene in the living room. Every year this scene looks different. I use the same things in the scene every year. So now we have the tree up with lights and the Santa scene up.

Ethel’s niece called and made arrangements for us to meet in Liberty. We are very excited to have Ethel here for a while.

Another night of TV and computer watching.

December 14, 2009

Paul got up, got dressed and left for the campus to check on his enrollment. They still have not received the transcript from Portland Community College. He went to the school and came back before I even woke up.

Paul called the Portland Community College to find out when they would be mailing the transcript. They mailed it last week. So, soon this school will have it.

I took a nap. I was grumpy. When I got up I showered and dressed. We braved the cold and drove over to Tom’s to pick up Kathy. Tom is taking Sandy’s son to take the census bureau test in another town tomorrow and then Sandy’s office party is tomorrow night.

We stopped at Burger King to eat dinner and let Kathy play. The most bizarre thing happened when we walked into the play yard. A young boy about five started yelling at me. He followed me pointing his finger and screaming at me for being heavy. He yelled just look at your body. You are very fat. You have done this to your body. As he screamed and pointed his finger at me he just kept moving forward in a menacing way. I stood where I was and looked him in the eye. I said nothing but kept eye contact. This young child really has been exposed to some abusive behavior for him to be so aggressive toward a complete stranger. He backed down, no parent intervened. Kathy played on the maze until this child started to harass her, and then we took Kathy home. It was really sad to see what a home environment can do to a child.

When we got home Kathy made herself at home on the couch all cozy with a pillow and a blanket. She found my new book and wanted me to read it. So while she held the book, with no pictures, I told her all about the Princess from the Mystical Land of Zoray. She loved it. I must have told her three stories about the princess before she closed her new favorite book.

Bev called me very late tonight, well at 2:20 am, but my rule is it is still tonight until I sleep. We got a chance to catch up a little. I was awake and in the office when she called.

Kathy had a really rough night. She tossed and turned and cried out several times. I was up with her until after 4:30.

December 15, 2009

Kathy was up very early this morning. She was in a very good mood, even though her night was so short. I got up with Kathy and fed her breakfast. She spent the morning watching Sesame Street and having me read her the Adventures of the Mystical Land of Zoray. When I finally put up my book, she would grab anything, a piece of paper or a note book to have me read another adventure.

She found some things to go on the tree. I now have several bows on the tree, a Christmas stocking and a little train and a 6 inch piece of red garland. I haven’t found my tree ornaments yet, but Kath was very creative when she took on the chore of decorating the tree.

When Paul finally got up he told me I could go to take a nap since I had been up all night. Well, I did get about three hours sleep. But I wasn’t tired so I decided to take a nap when Kathy went down for her nap.

When it was time for Kathy’s nap she slept only an hour. I took that hour to check my email. I was really quite surprised that I wasn’t sleepy, I should have been.

And so the day went along. Kathy was totally engrossed in the Mystical Land of Zoray; I just kept making up stories for her. She was sad when I took a break to make dinner. She really appreciated the work though. We had chicken strips, mashed potatoes and veggies. She ate so well and was still in a great mood.

This evening she enjoyed a Christmas movie and then went to bed, covered up and was asleep before Grandpa could get out of the room.

I went to bed around 11:30, got comfortable, made sure I was covered and went to sleep. Paul read for a while, but I didn’t care. I was slumbering.

December 16, 2009

We were all awake pretty early today. Paul went to get a priority box for me for the Grandkids in the Azores. I had checked with Barnes and Noble and they had the book that I wanted for my seven year old granddaughter. I was ready to send their package out.

Kathy took a short nap today and then we left to meet with Ethel and her family. We stopped at Barnes and Noble on the way. They didn’t have the book tonight that they had this morning. I am so sad. I haven’t decided what to do about it yet.

We met Ethel and her family in Liberty and had dinner. Kathy took one look at Ethel across the table and said OH IT’S DADDY. She sat in her chair for a while, content to just talk to Ethel. But as the wait for the food stretched out she became impatient and wanted to go and sit on Ethel’s lap. Ethel has a new best friend now. It really was a nice dinner, great conversation, good food and of course having Ethel around was wonderful.

On the way home from picking up Ethel we dropped Kathy off at home. She went in and said Hi and then sat on Ethel’s lap. She was a very tired little girl, so Tom excused her and she went to bed. Tom said she was asleep before he was out of the room.

When we got home we visited with Ethel for a long time. We had special visitors that were anxious to see Ethel too. We all went to bed tired but content.

December 17, 2009

We were so excited to go outside today. It was 55, felt like 55 degrees outside. I took my muffler because we planned to be gone all day, but I didn’t have to use it.

We drove to Knob Noster, saw our dream house. This is a very old 5 bedroom house with huge rooms. We peeked in the windows before and today we walked all around the house. It is so large. In the basement is a one bedroom apartment. Paul and I have just fallen in love with this old house. When you walk up on the big porch you feel the peace that must have abide in this home.

We drove around the outside boundaries of the air base. We had never done that before. The base is very large. To go on the base we would have to go to the visitor’s center and get Ethel approved for entry to the airbase. None of us felt like getting out of the car just then.

We went to Sedalia and I picked up a book for the red headed granddaughter. We had lunch at Subway Took Ethel over to see the hotel that has the Christmas trees.

Trina called and we changed the day that we are going to go over to see her. Now we are going on Monday.

Back at home Paul picked up a Papa Murphy’s pizza for dinner. We were ready to sit and eat and watch Christmas movies. Our doorbell rang. We have never heard the doorbell before, we weren’t sure if it was our door or something on TV.

When I went to answer the door, no one was there but there was a box of food on the porch. Someone had given us a turkey, all the fixings for a Christmas meal and a $20 Wal-Mart gift card in a Christmas card. It really was a special surprise for us tonight.

I packed the gifts for the Grandkids in Azores. Paul and I worked on Bev’s gift. I wrote a few more adventures from the Land of Zoray for Kathy the next time she is here.

Bev called and we talked. She almost had a fire in her house today. She was protected, the second time this year, from a tragedy

I am off to bed, it has been a great day.

December 18, 2009

It was a very cold day. Ethel and I stayed home when Paul headed to the store.

It is always interesting when Paul goes to the store alone. I gave him a list and reminded him what the balance in the checking account was. I asked him to be careful. Silly me. He came home with three of everything. He bought two $5 movies, Adams Family Values and Footloose. He left a few dollars in the bank. Our plans for the rest of the week have been canceled.

We watched Christmas movies with Ethel tonight.

December 19, 2009

My fleece mask came and it is cold outside. I got to go out anyway. I look pretty funny in my new black mask, but my breath stays warm and I have a little bit more freedom when choosing to go out on a frigid day.

Ethel stayed home while we ran errands. When we got home we watched Christmas movies with Ethel. Ethel really likes her movies.

December 20, 2009

Today was the Christmas program at church. Paul sang in the choir. The program was wonderful. We stayed for the entire block today. It was a good day.

We went to Odessa to pick up Kathy. Tom loves to visit with Ethel. We had a quick but great visit at their house. When we got home we ate.

We watched Christmas movies with Ethel.

Went to bed early

December 21, 2009

We got up and got ready to leave for Brent’s house and then Trina’s place. We took the baby stuff for Drew’s new baby with us and bookmarks for the girls in the family and rubix cube for the boys.

Saw Brent at his house. He is looking very good. His brother, his girlfriend, her sister and her sister’s 2 year old daughter ended up without a place to stay. Brent let them move in to his house. His landlord has a bigger house that will be available soon, so they will be moving there soon.

Kathy loves Brent. She was very happy to see him. The bonus of a little 2 year old to play with just made her so excited. Ethel was glad to see Brent too. The last time she saw him, he was shorter than she was.

We always carry something to make sandwiches with when we travel here. So we made peanut butter and jelly sandwiches and visited.

We gave Brent, the little girl and her mom their presents. I didn’t spend any money on Christmas this year. I had a few things put away and I found them just before. So everyone got a cheap little present.

Just before we left a friend of Brent’s came in with a huge pit-bull. This dog loves little kids. Now, Kathy was thrilled. She had her cousin Brent, a playmate, peanut butter sandwich and a dog. We let her play for just a little and then it was time to go.

Next we went to Trina’s. Brian, Drew, Jessica and Davie were there.

I had made Twilight Saga bookmarks for Trina and all of the girls. I was so excited about the present, I couldn’t wait. I gave the bookmarks to Trina. She loved them. She put her favorite on the refrigerator. I let all of the girls have their bookmarks. The boys had all gone out to check the river levels.

We had a great visit. Trina fed us all sandwiches to hold us until dinner. We watch a movie and visited with the kids.

When it was finally dinner time we enjoyed a great ham dinner. I had brought my pink cloud. That always makes everyone at Trina’s happy.

Just before we left we gave the boys their Rubix cubes. They loved them. They started playing with them right away and it kept them interested for quite a while.

Kathy had a very busy day and was asleep shortly after we left. Both Ethel and I dozed off and on all the way home. It had been a very good day.

We finally pulled into the driveway at midnight. We fed Kathy a snack and sent her off to bed, and we followed her example.

December 22, 2009

We were all very tired. Kathy slept until 10:00. I fed her and we got ready to take her home.

I actually had a teaching moment with Kathy in the office today. She came in and wanted to smudge me. I let her and then I smudged her. I told her to go smudge Grandpa. Then she wanted to work with the tuning fork. She just wanted me to be all better. I actually explained a few things to her and she took everything in.

We took Kathy home and visited with Tom a few minutes. Then we drove home. Paul went into Wal-Mart and got the few things we needed.

It was another night of TV watching with Ethel.

While I was meditating and getting ready to teach Ethel tomorrow I decided to lead a grief meditation. I read a few grief meditations on line, all of them excellent, but just not exactly what I needed. I finally took what I needed from 3 different meditations and added touches of my own.

December 23, 2009

Ethel asked for us to teach her Reiki level one, and today is the day. Ethel lost her husband 4 years ago. She has put up so many walls of defense that she just couldn’t grieve.

I lead a balancing meditation at the beginning of class. Paul does most of the teaching; I add a thought or ten when I feel I should. Then in the middle of the class I lead the grief meditation. It really touched Paul, but Ethel still has so many defenses up that I think she stopped participating in the meditation half way through.

All in all it was a good class. Paul took us out to eat after class. No one felt like cooking.

December 24, 2009

Ethel was excited to be going home today. Even though we stayed up late talking she was up bright and early. She got her laundry done and packed yesterday, so she was really ready to go.

We left about noon. Ethel treated us to lunch at Bob Evans. We all ate breakfast. The omelet’s there are, what is that word I am looking for, oh yeah, yummy.

Paul got a picture of Melissa and the girls from Michael on his phone. He and Michael chatted for a little while. It was a very good present for Paul today.

The weather was beginning to be menacing. The wind was whipping the flags around and temperature dropped. We took Ethel to the Visitor’s Center in Independence. Paul dropped us off by the door and parked the car. When he came in he told us that the hand rail had ice on it already. When we got inside my legs just aren’t working well, so I stayed in the lobby and rested while Paul and Ethel went on the tour. There is a small Christus, only about 15 feet high in the lobby. I just lost myself in the calm of the room and the peace that was there. It seemed to be a very good way to spend some time on Christmas Eve.

By the time the tour was finished the roads were getting icy. We had planned to go to one more place, but there wasn’t time with the bad driving conditions. We drove to the airport. We dropped Ethel off at the curb and then went to park. It was starting to snow. Paul went in to the airport to make sure that Ethel was all checked in and that her flight was going to be able to take off.

We headed towards Odessa and outside it was a full blown storm now. We drove 30-40 miles per hour along the freeway. The snow was blowing causing bad visibility. The road was icy with snow covering the ice. We saw many wrecks along the way

Just as we got about 15 minutes away from Tom and Sandy’s house, we pulled out of the storm. No snow or ice on the road yet. We decided that we could take a few minutes to stop and exchange gifts with Tom, Sandy and Kathy.

I had promised Sandy’s dogs a gift too. I know that sounds kind of funny but they come meet me every time I come into the house. I actually bought some dog toys for them but when it was time to leave today, I couldn’t find them. So I had a small present for each of the adults, but nothing for the dogs today.

Sandy had all kinds of goodies to eat. She made a lot of candy, and I love candy. She made fudge, and sausage and cheese sauce for chips. We had a summer sausage and crackers. We shared our feast when Sandy’s son came in and said that the snow had arrived.

We exchanged our gifts. Sandy and Tom gave us a certificate for 12 housecleaning days. We take Kathy and go somewhere with her, they clean the house. This is a very good gift. Then we took off for home. The trip home was ok, just starting to snow and the wind wasn’t bad yet. We pulled into Wal-Mart to get a few essentials, but it was already closed and wouldn’t open until Saturday.

We drove into the driveway and hurried into our warm cuddly house. We had been gone from the house for over 9 hours and we were tired, besides Santa was going to come soon.

Before bed Paul had to drag the garbage can down our steep slippery drive way. I was pretty worried, but the can was full, actually over full, and garbage was going to be picked up in the morning.

Ethel called when she landed in Portland. She was on the last flight out of KCI. She had no trouble in Denver and flew out of there on time. She was glad to be home away from the frigid weather, but she promised to come back sometime.

December 25, 2009

Today was Christmas. We had a WHITE CHRISTMAS. It also was a cold Christmas.

Tim called and told us that the kids wanted to talk to us on Skype. We spent about 2 hours chatting with the kids. They showed us what came in their stockings and some of their presents. This is a great gift to us, getting to watch the kids enjoy Christmas. The 5 year old boy got a scooter for Christmas and he demonstrated his skills right there on the kitchen floor. I am still smiling.

I put the turkey on to roast and we just spent the day watching Christmas movies and talking to the kids on the phone. Paul called Laverne and Violette.

It was a very good day. We were snowed in, but we were connected to our family. The snow is like a silencer. We heard very little noise from the street. I heard the garbage truck and only about 2 cars all day long.

December 26, 2009

Throughout the morning we watched the roads. A few cars went by our house. After the snow plow went by we decided to try to go to the store. This weather is supposed to last a few more days. We needed a few things, but mainly we needed to go out of the house.

Paul hazarded the walk down the driveway to get the mail and bring the garbage can back to our backyard. While he was out he started the car and got all of the snow off of the windshield.
He came in to tell me all was ready for our venture out of the house.

I really love my fleece mask, but I look pretty funny with it on. But it keeps my breath warm and it doesn’t fall off like the muffler does. It actually lets me go out in cold weather a little easier. The snow had drifted onto the back step and around the gate. Paul led the way and I followed in his footsteps to the car. The car was nice and toasty when I got in.

Going down the driveway was no problem. We made it to the store driving slowly. It was snowing again though. Paul and I ate at Subway before shopping. Then we got necessities for the next couple of days. When we were ready to leave the temperature had taken a drop and it was snowing. Paul took the groceries to the car and then brought the car to the front door of the store for me. This frigid weather takes a toll on my body. My legs just give out.

The snow was coming down pretty hard on the way home. When we got to the house Paul tried pulling into the driveway. We got into the driveway and could go no further. Paul backed straight out of the driveway and then tried again. We got most of the way up the steep slope. We could have left the car there on the incline, but Paul wanted to try one more time.

So he backed down the hill, straight out into the street and took a running start. At the top of the driveway we started to fishtail. I wasn’t really worried until the house was inches away from the car. Yikes. Paul managed to straighten up the car and we stopped on the level where we usually park. While we were still in the car we made the decision not to go to church tomorrow since it was going to snow all night.

When we got into the house we got a phone call from a friend at church. This man goes to Civil War Reenactments with Trina. He called Trina to get our phone number. He wanted us to know that church had been cancelled. The guilt for staying home on a snow day was removed with that call. This guy really went the extra mile to inform us of the cancelation.

I checked my email and I had an email with the same information. We were well informed even though we are so new to the congregation.

We watched TV and played on our computers. My sister text me and asked for Reiki. Paul and I sent that to her before we went to bed.

December 27, 2009

It was so bright out this morning when we woke up. The sun was shining on the white snow, everything was glistening. It had snowed during the night.

It was a very quiet day. I talked to Tom and Ted. Paul talked to Laverne. We watched TV. We sent Reiki.

Snow days are only exciting when you can go out to play in the snow.

December 28, 2009

It was so pretty today. We opened all of the blinds and let the sunshine fill our house. I have really little windows. To see outside, I have to stand by them. I can lean by elbows on the sill and watch the winter wonderland.

The road in front of the house was almost clear. We are on the corner and the road going along the side of the house was completely clear. The sky was a brilliant blue contrasted against the glistening white snow. All the trees are bare and stark. I can see several blocks down the street. This is view that is hidden during the summer by the leaves.

Paul and I checked the weather report. It is supposed to snow again tomorrow. So we took off to the store. It really was a necessary trip, but we wanted out of the house and that was a destination for us.

The store was packed. I guess we weren’t the only ones with cabin fever. We picked up a few things and headed for home. The moon was visible in the clear sky as we drove up the drive way. Paul brought the groceries in and I put them away while he was clearing off the backyard step and sidewalk.

In the back of the house, because we are near the top of the hill, we can sit at the kitchen table and see our neighbor’s house, the church on the street above us and traffic if there is any going by. As we sat eating lunch we watched as the clouds rushed in. Our glorious bright day changed to a gloomy dark day in minutes. We were very thankful that we were able to go out during the best part of the day.

I got an email from Bev. NO BLOG SINCE THE 15TH!!!!! I caught up my blog and now you are all up to date with me.

I got an email from my red-headed granddaughter. She said. I love you grandma. I will take the time to send her a nice long email.

Tonight Paul and I are going to watch TV, play on the computer and watch it snow.

Thursday, December 10, 2009

Warning, a very boring journal

December 1, 2009

Tom had an appointment at the University. He had Kathy tested there. Today they gave Tom the results of the tests. They think she would do well with special classes. So Kathy will start school at the University two days a week the same time that Grandpa starts.

Tom asked us to go and Sandy went. Paul, Sandy, Kathy and I sat in the waiting room while Tom went to the office. It is really cold today and would have been better if we kept Kathy at home. I will be the one that takes Kathy to class, especially after Tom finds a job.

We did bring Kathy with us while Tom and Sandy ran errands. We paid the rent and other bills and then took Kathy home with us. We fed Kathy lunch and she took time to hug her Santa, after we turned on his light. They stopped by to get Kathy about 4.

Tim called me on the computer (Skype). We had a great talk. We talked for over an hour. I love talking to him. Justin was the only kid still awake so I got to see him for a minute. We talked about everything tonight.

I have trouble in the cold with my asthma. It was pretty chilly out today, but I could control the air I was getting by using a muffler over my face. I hate that. I do it, but I don’t like it. Anyway tomorrow is going to be brutally cold with heavy winds, so we went shopping tonight so that we could stay at home tomorrow.

We ate at Subway before shopping. It was nice to be out of the house.

I ended up having to sit down while Paul finished the shopping. I was watching the young man welcoming everyone. A couple of young girls came in and he was very friendly and chatty with him. In my mind I said, typical. Ok, the next person in was a little old man and this young man greeted him as a friend. I watched as he greeted and said goodbye to all that passed his way. I was impressed. He left everyone with a smile on their face. So there I sat thinking, I should really tell this young man what I am thinking. Just at that point there was a break in the activity at the door and the young man was near to where I was sitting. I crooked my finger and signaled him to come over. Sweet kid did that. I told him my entire thought process about him and complimented him on a job well done. He was pretty happy to hear I wasn’t angry with him, for earlier that night there had been an anonymous complaint. He wondered if I would call the manager and let her know.

When Paul and I got home I called the manager. I could tell when I started she was a little tense and very stiff with me. I started at the beginning when the girls came in and finished with the fact he treated everyone with the same polite, friendly manner. The manager thanked me for calling, for identifying myself and leaving the compliment for the young man. I think that was my give for the day.

December 2, 2009

I prepared to stay at home all day, we are having waves of cold weather sweep over us here. I paid the rest of the bills that I could on line.

I knew I would spend some time on the 29 day gift site. I haven’t welcomed on there since November when I left the Welcome Wagon Group. I noticed that it had been several days since anyone had welcomed, so I welcomed everyone. I welcomed over 150 new members. That took several hours.

I fixed a yummy turkey roast dinner, with mash potatoes, green beans and cranberry sauce. Paul and I enjoyed dinner at the table, and then we went to watch a movie

December 3, 2000

Tom got a call today, Tom’s lawyer was disqualified. Tom still gets to use his original lawyer. But this will mean his divorce won’t be done until sometime next year.

It was Tom’s birthday today. We stopped at Wal-Mart, ate a sandwich at Subway, and picked up the ice cream. We took banana split ice cream over to his house.

Kathy wasn’t happy to see us, she wanted to stay home. I guess we don’t go over often enough when we just are visiting. She wasn’t coming home with us. When she realized we were staying she was happier.

December 4, 2009

Today we had the best surprise; a calendar was delivered from Tim and Michelle with pictures of them on each month. It was the bright spot in our day.

Boy I didn’t keep track of anything, I know it was cold. We watched the movie Star Trek XI tonight.

December 5, 2009

Pretty much the same thing, cold out.

We went to Aldi's today to check it out for Tim. It is like Canned Food Warehouse. Only found white bleached flour, no pastry flour like Michelle was interested in. You have to pay a quarter to get your cart, and then when you check out they take everything from your cart, scan it and put it into another cart. After you pay, you go to the front of the store. There is a wide ledge to work on. You pack you groceries there. It was kind of a mad house today.

December 6, 2009

Too cold to go to church, so we slept in today.

Tom and Sandy brought Kathy over for a few days. First thing she wanted was the Santa to be turned on. She was ok when they left this time.

Just as Tom and Sandy were leaving Tim called using Skype. Michelle would like some white chocolate chips if we could mail them in the next box to them. I can do that.

Kathy is so easy to keep. We watched the new Music Man. I think she really wanted to watch Bing again.

Paul put her to bed. She just goes in, and goes to sleep. I really love that.

December 7, 2009

Tom took a test to become a Census taker. That is why we had Kathy today. Because of his learning disability they gave him the test one on one. He passes and now he and 10,000 others wait to hear who will be hire.

Brutally cold here, Paul went to the store to get whatever we might need over the next few days. He took Kathy with him. She was really excited to go. I stayed home out of the cold air.
After shopping Paul stopped by Burger King and brought dinner home.
We let Kathy eat in front of the TV. We watched a Christmas show on TV.

December 8, 2009

The worse part of the cold will be tomorrow. I let Paul go and get Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince. He went by himself. Kathy ate well all day and took long naps. She is learning to steal your nose and then she throws it away into the garbage. Kathy and Grandpa have a running fight over the noses.

Our bed broke early this morning. The ledge that holds the slates for the box spring unglued for some reason. Paul removed the foot board, took off the slates and put the box spring and mattress on the floor. I don’t have to climb on a stool to get into bed for now. Paul will be fixing the frame as soon as possible.

I made spaghetti for dinner tonight. I said to Kathy bring me the sauce. She brought me the applesauce. She loves to help. She really is our entertainment while we are stuck in the house.

December 9, 2009

Kathy slept late, took a long nap and cuddled most of the day. Just before Sandy and Tom got her to pick her up tonight she started to have diarrhea, poor baby. Her nose was all plugged up today and she is really grumpy. Well she is still playing the nose game with Grandpa.

Today she found a box in the office of food that I had not put on the shelf. She kept herself busy for over an hour getting everything in the box to the exactly right place. Once in a while she would look over at me and make sure it was the right place, and of course it always was. She did ask once where to put the marshmallow cream. I said by the applesauce. She could have never reached the third shelf where it belonged. She was very proud of her work.

After all that work in the office she picked up some stuff toys from the living room and took them to her room. Then she grabbed my hand and said come see. In her bed, nice and neat, they were all taking a nap. I told her she really was being a good mommy today.

We fed Kathy dinner before she was picked up tonight. She was very excited to see Sandy and Daddy. She was ready to go home and play with the real dogs. Tonight Paul and I watched Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince.

December 10, 2009

I got up kind of early, especially since we were home alone. I could have slept in today. But my eyes opened and that was it. I think I was excited. The temperature was supposed to be warmer today and I thought I would make it out of the house. When I got out of bed it was zero, felt like -13. The high today was 24.

I just hung out in the office playing on the computer. I decided to put together a calendar for Laverne and Violette. I spent hours looking for pictures. Paul called his sister to have her email a current picture of her and her new husband. I warned her if it didn’t come, I would be using old pictures.

Paul’s glasses came in the mail. This afternoon Paul ventured out to go to the store and to get his glasses adjusted. I just couldn’t get myself pumped up enough to try to go outside, maybe tomorrow.

I did get an email from my 7 year old granddaughter. She asked me several questions and told me several things. Each question or piece of information she chose a different color of font. When I wrote back to her I answered the red question with a red font and so on.

Just as I had sent her email back to her I got a Skype call from my son, the teacher, her dad.

Paul and I ate dinner and then we watched TV. These types of days I am not very interesting.

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

Journaling November 22-30, 2009

November 22, 2009

We didn’t make it to church. Paul woke up and now he is not feeling well. He woke me to tell me he was staying home. My leg is bothering me so much that driving myself was out of the question, so we both went back to sleep.

We both got up later for breakfast. I played on the computer, wrote letters and read stories.

After a little while Paul had to go back to bed. I am going to go and read Cami’s book 29 days of giving. Today it finally dawned me that all three of us have been at various stages of some kind of flu. Kathy and I are starting to feel a little better. I still feel weak and tired, but I think it, whatever it is, finally hit Paul.

November 23, 2009

We went over to the single mom’s apartment to take her and her daughter to their appointment. When we got there the mom was waiting for the police to come and interview her daughter about a separate incident. We drove her to the school to pick up her little girl and take her to the apartments. I let the mom use my phone to call and let the officer know that she was at the house with her daughter. Then she called about the appointment that she had and got the address. It is in the same town that we went to for the dance a half hour drive away. We waited for the officer to come back until we had to go.

It was kind of a gloomy day, but the route to Sedalia is full of history and Civil War era homes so we passed the time away wondering about the history of those big old houses.

Paul and I stayed in the car while they went in for the appointment. The little girl was molested by a cousin. She doesn’t want to talk about it, and she has been acting out quite a bit. The officials are trying to prepare her for court, scary time for a ten year old.

After we finally got back into town we dropped them at home and came home. We watched TV. Then we played on the computer for a while and tried to go to bed early. It really didn’t work. By the time we were ready to sleep it was over 2 again.

November 24, 2009

We actually got out of bed at an almost decent hour. We had to go to the Airbase to try to get my prescriptions. I am almost out of everything.

On the way to the Air Base we saw a B-2 bomber taking off and one landing. What an awesome sight. I have always loved to see the Air Force fly and in this area I get the privilege of watching the newest and best fly.

We have to go through the security at the front gate. Both Paul and I have to show our military ID. We have gone to the clinic a number of times, but today was the first time we actually got things taken care of. We found out today by being enrolled we will be seen by a doctor at the clinic on base. The only time we will have to pay for co-pay is when we have a referral for something off base. I am pretty excited. I was assigned a primary care PA today and they told me that appointments are usually made in a couple of days. Wow. We have to go back tomorrow and see if Fort Leonard Wood will transfer my prescriptions. If not, I will see my new PA next week and get started with him.

We explored a little more today, getting to know the area that we are living in now. It has so much history here. I hope to be able to learn much about the history of this town and those surrounding us.

November 25, 2009

Paul had to be at the VA medical center today for an eye exam. It really was a pretty drive, very sunny out today but cold and blustery. It is about an hour away. We arrived a half hour early like they asked. Paul was seen by a young women doctor.

Paul’s eyes have changed very little and the diabetes has not affected his eyes at all. He picked out his frames. The frames will be mailed to our house in about 3 weeks. He is pretty happy to have new glasses coming. He got travel pay, enough to fill our gas tank and eat.

On the way home we stopped at Bob Evan’s to eat. We both chose to eat omelets for breakfast. Our waitress was very sweet and very good at service. It really was a treat

Today was payday. That used to mean a little more than it does now. We had the dues for our Tri-Care coming out of this check, so we are very short. A little grocery shopping, and we were done for the week.

We watched a movie and went to bed, but we were pretty tired. We had been out of the house all day.

November 26, 2009

Happy Thanksgiving. Our plans for today was to make our dishes to take to my son and his girlfriend’s house, enjoy time with family and come home.
Before the day even started Paul got a phone call from my son, Kathy’s dad. He received a text message that Paul was stranded in Nigeria and needed thousands of dollars to get make home.

My daughter and my sister called with the same message. Then I got an email outlining Paul’s dilemma and wanting money to be sent to him in Nigeria. Someone had hijacked Paul’s MSN account. He tried to get into the account the night before and he couldn’t. He immediately reported the problem, but still could not get into the account.

Then I got an email from a friend. She forwarded the same email that I got to me. I assured her that Paul was here, and that there was absolutely no way that he would mass mail asking for money. She already knew that.

Paul sent out an email to everyone he could think of letting everyone know that his email account had been compromised and he was safe at home.

A few of my friends received the same email and checked with me to see if I had indeed been left at home while Paul traveled. We finally just left for dinner at my son and his girlfriend’s house.

The drive over to their house was incredible. We were feeling quite picked on with the email hijacking. I haven’t seen many hawks since we moved, I hear one in the mornings often, but no sightings. Today on our 30 minute drive we saw no less than 6 different hawks flying in different fields all the way to our destination. The sight of one hawk always lifts my spirit, so by the time we reached the house I felt like I too was soaring.

Dinner was wonderful, ready as we walked into the house. Paul craved the turkey and we all sat down to a wonderfully prepared meal. We enjoyed our time with the family. Kathy came home with us for a couple of days.

When we got home we watched White Christmas with Bing Crosby. When he started to sing Kathy was memorized. She said oh who is he? I told her that was Bing and she watch every move he made the rest of the evening. We had to turn off the movie because it was past her bedtime. She went to bed with the promise she would get to see the rest of the movie tomorrow.

November 27, 2009

Kathy up early, around 6:00. I got up with her. We ate breakfast together and put a puzzle together. Then she watched some TV and played with her toys. I really think she likes the one on one time she gets here from each of us.

Paul got up much later. He sent me to bed. Can you imagine, he said I was a little grumpy? I took a nap. Kathy was able to have one on one time with Grandpa. She was very happy. After they played and watched a little more TV, Grandpa feed her and put her down for a nap. When I got up I felt much better.

We left for Sedalia in the early evening. It was still light when we got to the dollar store. While we were in the store Kathy found a Santa hat that she just couldn’t live without. We bought her the hat because she looked so cute.

From the Dollar Store we went to Burger King for dinner. Kathy wanted to go play. We had to remind her of the rule about eating first before playing. When she realized that we weren’t going to change the rule for her, she ate. This play yard was different than the one she plays on in our town. She had a choice between 4 different slides. She loves wandering around the maze and yelling down at us, making sure that we follow her progress. When we left she was sure it wasn’t time to go, but again, we got to play the boss.

Vanessa called and talked with Kathy. Kathy was looking at lights and chattering, but not really to Vanessa. We could hear Vanessa being coached by someone as to questions she should ask.

We stopped at the hotel that Paul and I went to last week in town. As we walked in Kathy saw 2 large nutcracker figures as tall as grandpa. She would have been happy if that was the end of the tour. But we had her look forward and pointed out a 7 foot tall tree that she could see from the door. She was excited about that, but then as she walked forward she saw two other trees in the entrance of the lobby. Then she turned and saw the big tree. She was so very excited. She checked out all of the ornaments. She saw their Santa figure and was ready to hug him. The lady at the desk had us take her up to the second floor where she could see the lobby from above. Kathy really loves Christmas trees and any Santa that is stuffed or stationary. I posted the pictures of the tree and hotel in a previous blog.

When we got home we watched the rest of White Christmas. It is official. Kathy loves Bing Crosby. She was a little upset when he kissed the leading lady, but she quickly forgave him when he sang one more song.

November 28, 2009

Realized I miscalculated the check book, we are $3.88 short. The check hasn’t gone through yet, but when it does we will be short. Paul has enough cash to cover my mistake, so Monday we will go to the bank.

Kathy loves her Santa hat. She puts it on and is who who whoing all over the house. We can’t get her to say HO HO HO. I have an animated Santa that is almost as tall as Kathy. She loves this Santa (live Santas are evil in Kathy’s mind. She screams if she thinks she has to talk to a live Santa)

When Tom and Sandy came to get Kathy she shared her Santa hat and the new Santa in my house. She asked what that was, I told her it was Santa’s beard. She noticed that Santa didn’t have any hair and asked about that. I told her that Santa was bald. She said oh and began to give Santa Reiki. This Santa in my house is the best loved animated Santa ever.

We cannot get Kathy to hold still for a picture, but when we asked her to hug Santa, she did and she posed for a picture. She spent several minutes posing for pictures and then looking at them with great delight.

They left and Paul and I spent the rest of the evening quietly watching TV. We actually went to bed early.

November 29,

I woke up to a strange dream. In my dream when I woke up my legs and ankles looked great. They were skinny. I thought, how did that happen? Then I realized that all of me was skinny. My friend from Oregon was visiting and Scar the Heart Warrior was visiting. I got out of bed and went to visit with my friends. They didn’t seemed surprised to see a skinny me.

Paul and I both were able to go to church. It was a very good meeting. We stayed for the entire time. Wow, going to bed early makes such a difference when you need to get up at a early hour.

None the less, we took naps after we got home. We really need to get on schedule, Paul will have to be getting up for classes soon.

I made a yummy breakfast for dinner. We spent the day quietly.

My friend from Oregon, the one I dreamed about called. She is going to come see us and spend a few days here. I am so excited. I tried to get her here when I lived near Branson. We would have been able to take her to a few shows. But we will have to find new activities here.
I heard from Scar, the Heart Warrior’s daughter. Scar went into the hospital for tests. They were afraid that she had another heart attack. I sent word to the daughter that I would be sending Reiki.

Now both of my friends that I dreamed about I heard from today. My question is does that mean I will be skinny someday? Now that is a change that I could live with.

I also sent Reiki to my son, the Fed Ex driver. He is going through a rough spot and feels pretty low.

November 30, 2009

We had to go to the bank and fix my mistake today. We drove to Lexington. It is a pretty drive to the bank and usually the traffic is nonexistent. Today we sat in a line of traffic. There was no cars coming toward us and no one was going forward. When we were finally able to move just up the road a bit was a small car totally burned up. I have no idea if anyone was hurt, but there was nothing left of the car except for charred metal.

On the way back to Warrensburg we stopped at a Wal-Mart in a different town. This was the smallest Wal-Mart I have ever seen. We decided to just go on home. Well, actually Paul drove me over to the Air Base. My prescriptions were ready. We saw several hawks hunting on this part of the trip.

We stopped to check with the single mother we drove the other day. She wasn’t at home, but I left her a message. She has been doing her laundry in her tub. We are trying to find a day that she could come and do her laundry at my house.

We got home and ate leftovers. We had a quiet evening. It had been a good day.

This is the last day of November. I have no idea how the year passed so quickly. We have seen lots of changes in our lives, mostly for the good. Just one more month and we will be in a whole new year.

Sunday, November 22, 2009

Just journaling November 15-22, 2009

November 15, 2009

Paul went to church this morning by himself. I think I am coming down with something. At least that would explain all of the sleep I have been doing lately. This morning I was coughing and sneezing. We have been asked to stay at home when we have some symptoms, so I did.

I put a pork roast in my crock pot this morning. It is starting to smell good. By the time Paul gets home from choir practice, dinner should be ready.

When teenagers are texting on the phone they create all kinds of short cuts. BFF means best friends forever. DH is dear husband. LOL is laughing out loud. MIL is the one for mother-in-law. I have been challenged to name my plant. The plant is called mother-in-law because of its sharp pointed leaves. Now, my mother-in-law is sweet and kind so I had to laugh at the name. Anyway, I have taken calling my plants Millie. I just use the shortcut for mother-in-law and went from there. The Millies is doing great. New growth has shown up again. I am really amazed at my plants.

My son, his girlfriend brought Kathy over. Kathy will be staying for a few days. Kathy was a little clingy to her dad, but when he left, she was fine.

We ate a yummy dinner and spent time with Kathy. It was a good Sunday.

November 16, 2009

Kathy was up very early this morning. She was very clingy all day. You know she isn’t feeling well when Grandma is her favorite person. I sat at the table and she pulled her chair up right next to me. I couldn’t even get out of my chair. And so it went all day.

I fixed her lunch and we tried to get her to sleep. She slept for just a little while and then she was up. I had gone to bed for a nap and she climbed in bed with me. That would have been the end of my nap, but Paul took her into the living room and I got 45 minutes of uninterrupted rest.

My sister called today. As it gets closer to the holidays, she gets busier. The wind was blowing pretty hard and she had to go and rescue some signs that were in her yard.

Paul and Kathy started to watch the Santa Clause movies. By the end of the evening she had watched all three. She went off to bed with ease. Grandpa gets to put her to bed. We are always surprised at how easy she goes to sleep at night



November 17, 2009

Kathy was up and ready to go very early this morning. I feed her breakfast and we spent some time playing. My sister gave her a movie and we watched it this morning, The Tigger Movie. She played with legos, put puzzles together, colored and kept her eye on the TV all at the same time. I guess she is a multi tasker.

Kathy hears the train and always asks what that? I just ask her the same question. Usually she shrugs her shoulders. Today she said, train. Then she acted like she was pulling a whistle on the train and woo woo. I think she must have learned a lot of new words this week.

Kathy had a really rough night. She is just not feeling well. I think she had a bad dream, she woke up very upset. I took a chair into her room and sat with her as she tried to go back to sleep. She finally got back to sleep around three in the morning.

November 18, 2009

Kathy didn’t get up until almost ten. Because we are using her as our alarm clock, we didn’t get up until 10. Paul and I have shifted our schedule a lot. We stay up late and then sleep late. Usually when Kathy is here I have an early morning, but Paul gets to sleep in.

With Paul going back to school this January I am afraid he might have some trouble shifting back to a normal schedule. Maybe we should start now. We don’t want him sleeping through the morning classes.

Today was payday. We left about the time for Kathy’s lunch. We went to Burger King. Kathy loves to play on the slide there. It is too cold to play outdoors today. Kathy ate what she had to eat to be able to play but she wasn’t very hungry.

Her time in the Play yard was different today too. She was not as enthusiastic as usual. She climbed through the maze and went down the slide a couple of times. We realized she just isn’t up to par, so we left early. Kathy was sad to leave, but we really didn’t want to overtax her.

We bought my supplements, and headed to Wal-Mart. Kathy decided to go with Grandpa today in the store. She wanted to be in the bottom of the cart and my cart fills up and she has to sit in the seat. So she and Grandpa took off to explore the store. Star Trek VI is out and I told Paul that was our treat if he can find it. He found it.

We finished in the store, bought gas and we are done spending money for the week. Paul was pretty blue that we can do so little with the money coming in. I am just grateful that there is still money coming.

Paul looks for work all of the time. He realizes more and more the blessing he has by getting to go back to school. Jobs that he has done before are now requiring Bachelors. He could do the work, but with the hoards of unemployed, employers are requiring more schooling. It is a little scary that our income will drop more after school starts, but you do what you have to be employable again.

We were all pretty tired from our excursion out today. We ate leftovers and watched TV. Kathy went to bed and slept quietly all night.

November 19, 2009

Kathy is feeling so much better today. How do I know? My living room is covered with toys. She is running back to her room for more. The legos are all in their wagon, but the wagon is in the kitchen, just in case I need to be there, she will have something to do when she is supervising me.

I put her in a little dress today. She loves dresses. She loves to twirl and sway and hold your hand and dance. I taught her a little dance today and she caught on very fast. My sister will know this dance. Put your little foot, put your little foot, put your little foot right there.

I showed her how to point her to her foot and tap right there. I taught her that you do it once with one foot and then once with the other foot. Then the song goes on Then you touch and you turn and touch and you turn and you touch and you turn, see how easy to learn.

She spent the remainder of the morning holding the hem of her dress and pointing her toes. And of course at the end of the dance, she remembered to curtsey.

Kathy’s dad came and got her a day early. She finally is feeling better. I am so very glad. I hate to see her not feel well.

Tonight Paul and I rested and watched TV.

I went to bed early. I am going to try to get back on schedule.

November 20, 2009

Well, going to bed early didn’t work out. I tossed and I turned. Then when I finally got to sleep, I had a nightmare. The dream really shook me up, so I got up and went to the office and surfed the internet for a while. Then I went back to bed and slept fitfully. I got up to eat breakfast and realized that a cold had finally caught me. I was really grumpy. I went back to bed.

Paul enrolled at the University today. He will have to go to the school Monday to fill out some more papers. He asked me at 2:00 if I was getting out of bed. NO, I AM NOT. I was grumpy.

But I had made arrangements to go and visit a couple of young ladies with another lady from church, so I got out of bed, took my shower and got ready, all of the time thinking that I would call and cancel my appointment.

Paul and I left a little early so that we could stop by the Verizon store and change our phone numbers to a local number. We have a house phone, but we have only received a handful of calls on it, so we decided to drop the phone. Paul wanted a local number to give the University.
Then he took me to visit the young ladies.

I really enjoyed the visit. I got to know the lady that had asked me to go along as well as to get to know the two we had visited. Just as we were getting ready to leave I asked if there was anything that we could do. I won’t go into to details, but the one is going through a horrible experience and she needed a ride for her and her daughter Monday. She wasn’t sure of the address, she has no phone and no car. I had her give me a number to call to verify the address. I hadn’t taken my phone with me or I would have just let her call right then.

When I got home I called the number, but because of confidential reasons, I could not be given any information. She will have to call Monday for that information before we leave to go to the appointment.

We had a quick dinner and got ready for a dance. It was a church dance being held at a historic hotel in Sedalia. The lobby of the hotel was elegant, and ready for Christmas. The dance was being held on the second floor in the Grand Ball Room.


We had a good time at the dance. It is really a good thing that we ate before going to the dance. There was suppose to be a table set up with food and drink. It was never delivered. The Stake President kept checking to see if it had been delivered yet, but when we left toward the end of the dance, still no buffet. Someone ran home and got a big container of water and brought cups, so everyone could rehydrate after dancing. But even with the glitch we had a very good time. We met a couple of interesting people and dance a few times. It was a good night.

November 21, 2009

First thing I did after breakfast was to go over to the lady’s house and give her the information, or actually the lack of information. I made arrangements to go to her house Monday and let her use the phone to get the information herself. Then Paul and I will take her and her daughter to the appointment.

Today we went exploring. I had seen an old house on line in the town just east of us and I wanted to see if we could find it. Plus we had never really explored Knob Noster. I don’t make up these names really. This is a quaint little town with lots of old homes. The surprise is that we found the one we were looking for. I guess it helped that Knob Noster is a very small town. We had a good outing; it was really nice to get out of the house two days in a row.

I have wonder about this name Knob Noster. So I looked it up. There are two small hills or knobs just outside of town. It was the landmark that you looked for back in the 1800’s to find this town. The word Noster is Latin meaning ours. Originally the town was really called Our Town, but was changed to Knob Noster in the early 1900’s. The name translates into Our Hills.

I worked in the kitchen today. It took so long to accomplish the little that I did. I have a baker’s rack in the kitchen and we had the microwave on the biggest shelf. Kathy was able to reach it and it worried me. So we moved the microwave up onto a smaller shelf. I have a couple plastic drawers with sandwich bags and wrapping paper and stuff in one and packages of noodles in the other. We put these on the bottom shelf. I have smaller plastic drawers to hold cooking utilizes. One more smaller drawer to hold the silverware. They went on the main shelf. This maneuvering left enough counter space to use my electric skillet or have my crock pot going when I want it on. This small kitchen will eventually be organized.

We finally watched the Star Trek movie. It helps that we are both fans of Star Trek, but the movie was great. We saw this on the big screen in Vancouver on our trip home this summer. We enjoyed it as much today as we did last summer.

November 22, 2009

We didn’t make it to church. Paul woke up and now he is not feeling well. He woke me to tell me he was staying home. My leg is bothering me so much that driving myself was out of the question, so we both went back to sleep.

We both got up later for breakfast. I played on the computer, wrote letters and read stories.
After a little while Paul had to go back to bed. I am going to go and read Cami’s book 29 days of giving. Today it finally dawned me that all three of us have been at various stages of some kind of flu. Kathy and I are starting to feel a little better. I still feel weak and tired, but I think it, whatever it is, finally hit Paul.

Monday, November 16, 2009

The World Needs Warrior of Light

Today being 9/11 I have been pondering the state of the world. I have been remembering that horrific day and the chaos that followed. I have been praying for all that were affected by those acts. I have been praying for the leaders of the world that their actions help heal rather than inflame.

It is frustrating to see so many complain of one man’s view against their own. I have actually seen in print that someone is the devil because they do not share the correct view, or the author’s view.

Man creates disharmony. Because of this disharmony the earth’s vibration is so low and needs to be raised by those of light, like you.

I believe that it is fear that causes this disharmony. It is the same fear that makes man want to be the only Creation worth the Creator’s time. The only way is their inflexible view of life. This tunnel vision hurts the earth’s march to light. Rigid views have always been a call to war.

The human race has become hard and rigid. The earth would be a Utopia except for man. The difficulty in knowing that a Utopia or paradise will be here on the Earth someday is that you have to believe, you have to prepare for that possibility. We that are here now are the markers of the way. We are Warriors of Light.

I don’t want to put you off by calling those who are leading the way to a better world, Warriors. I don’t mean it in a combative way. I mean it as a badge of honor; we will forge the way for others to follow.

So the question is what now? The change has started. I see it all over. I see it in the 29 Day Gift Challenge site. I have watched as the different people go from sullen and sad to joyful and playful. I see it when I teach Reiki and send more into the quest for light. I see it at church. I see it with the children being born now. They are children of light.

This is indeed a small world. If we can shine just a little light, soon the world will be glowing. I believe we can make a difference. I believe that as we connect and light the world, the world will begin to change.

The answer is you. You are a pioneer; you will be forging the way. You are Warriors of Light

Love and Light is not just the way I sign my name. It is the way forward.

Love and Light
Elly Rose

Saturday, November 14, 2009

In Honor of My Grandmother

I can’t place a first memory of my Grandma but I know that she always had a smile, a hug and a kind word.

She bore 8 children, one died as an infant, Raymond, and one, Hazel, died a mature lady of cancer just a few years before Grandma died.

Grandma’s life was hard and tedious with many trials, yet she never complained of unfairness. She had a quiet faith in God and his love. No matter what life could hand her, she handled life with patience and love. Early memories of her were in her home, where I felt like a guest of honor. A box of toys for her grandchildren sat ready in the corner. She loved crafts, parties, wrestling, her children and her grandchildren unconditionally.

As I grew up I found a true friend and confident in Grandma. Her wisdom and counsel stemmed from her simple faith.

My Grandmother Elsie taught me many things. Once when I was about 12 she and I were out eating at a restaurant. I said, wow that lady is so pretty. She said, tell her that. I argued with her, I was twelve and knew everything. The lady already had heard that many times. It would be rude for me to talk to her. She didn’t care what I said. Grandma told me then that a compliment not said is no compliment. Shyly I went to her table, just knowing she would yell at me. I stood there, shaking, and told her that I thought she was very pretty. The lady hugged me and cried. I hadn’t expected that. I was surprised. This beautiful lady had decided that no one ever saw her, she was depressed. Had I kept my compliment to myself, I would have never seen such an instant response to words said in kindness.

Grandma also taught me to be gracious when receiving a gift. On my birthday, toward the end of Grandma’s life she gave me money. Now I didn’t need the money. She did though, so I tried to not take the gift. She told me that she had been saving up for this moment, and I was not to ruin it with my pride. She asked me to let her have the dignity to give what she knew she could give. She told me she needed the blessing that came from giving and asked that I would not be a part in withholding the blessing from her. She asked me always to remember that when we are receiving a gift, our attitude in acceptance was a gift itself.

The first time that I saw her courage and understood that it was courage that I was observing was when Grandpa had died after a lingering illness.
At his memorial service Grandma was suffering so intensely, but even in her pain she worried about the family. Family was so important to her. She didn’t ever say that. Her actions, her unconditional love, her concern about her family showed how important family was to her.

After Grandpa died, I started visiting Grandma regularly. Of all my family, when I became pregnant with my daughter, Grandma never judged and she continued to love. We would go shopping. I’d drive her to the stores, and then she would take me for lunch at the King’s Table. She’d talked about family, always the good things, and plans she had. She loved Grandpa and always shared the good memories of him. I knew from my mother that there were many sad memories and hard times, but Grandma only told me of the love that she had for Grandpa, her children and her grandchildren.

Grandma loved wrestling. Every Saturday night at 8:30 she would be in front of her TV. She would be watching wrestling. She really got excited and enjoyed the show.
On her 83rd birthday I took her to the arena to see the midget wrestlers. She yelled and screamed, quite softly and then smiled. One time she met Johnny War Eagle. She shook his hand, and then smiled. She had been honored to meet this man. She smiled for a long time.

I remember Grandma working at her crafts. She decided what she was giving her own children and grandchildren for Christmas. Then she went to work. She would make pillows and dollies and Afghans and hooked rugs for everyone. After Grandpa died Grandma finances were sharply cut. Her projects slowed. As her health deteriorated the projects stopped. It was then our turn to make her Christmas and other holidays special. One of the families would get a tree, and then we all would share our decorations with her.

Even after her radical mastectomy, one of the many surgeries that she endured in her life, Grandma had a cheerful face and a quiet happy spirit. She was a true example of enduring to the end. I never heard Grandma murmur about living so long or being in such poor health.

Shortly after her mastectomy I gave her a pink frilly nightgown and robe. My mother was horrified, what was I thinking giving a lady of Grandma’s age something as frivolous as that. It made perfect sense to me to give this gift. My grandma was always a queen in my mind, and this is what I thought a queen should wear. Grandma loved the gift and wore it often, she actually wore it out. She told me in confidence that it made her feel like the queen I believed she was.

When I was recuperating from a serious illness that left me unable to speak, Grandma would call me on the phone everyday and make me talk to her for an hour. She could not have understood anything that I was trying to say, but she understood how important it was that I continued to work on learning to talk again.
Grandma never let me despair or give up. She would often say:

Do your best
Leave the rest
It’ll come right
Some day or night.

I loved Grandma dearly and hold her sweet loving spirit close to me. She taught me many things, and many times when I feel like giving up, I hear her once again urging me to do my best.

Grandma died in a nursing home. She had suffered some kind of trauma and wasn’t able to speak, but she did try to speak to me when I went to say good bye. I didn’t understand what she said with my ears, but I knew with my heart that even in her pain and suffering she was trying to comfort me. The nurses told me she had not tried to speak to anyone, but she knew I would understand her since she had listen to me relearn the art of speech.

This grand lady taught me much about love of life and family. She was a queen up to the end of her life. I loved her so much and am looking forward to the day that we meet again. But I would never stop living life to the fullest here and now. She wouldn’t like that.

The Universe gave me a sense of belonging, to having a claim to greatness through my grandmother.

Journaling

November 7, 2009

Paul mowed the yard today for the first and last time. I think the grass has finally quit growing for the season. It has been a very long growing season for the grass.

I finally finished arranging the shelves in the office. The food is now all in order. That doesn’t sound like a big job, but it sure took me forever. Next item of business, the kitchen table, find it

We didn’t even leave the driveway today. It was a busy organizing day, another boring day.

I wrote my mother-in-law a letter. It is another long one. I think I am going to try to send shorter ones more often.

November 8, 2009

We got up on time and ready for church. It was the Children’s program today. That is always a sweet meeting. We stayed for the entire block.

When we got home we both took a nap. Paul left for choir practice. I am so glad that he is back in the choir. They are preparing for the Christmas program. I fixed a yummy stir-fry for dinner.

We watched Wild Hogs and had a few laughs. It was a very quiet day.

Kathy’s dad called and talked for a minute. His wife had called him today and spoke to Kathy. It is always hard on Kathy when she has any contact with her mom

November 9, 2009

We got up too late for the pool.

We got to take part in my son, the teacher’s family home evening. He asked that I gave the lesson and Paul played the guitar. It was fun to see the kids. They were really excited to be talking to us through Skype.

Paul travel expense check came in the mail. We were out of milk and bread, so that means nothing in the house. We went to Wal-Mart and bought what we could with the money. Now Paul has a few dollars in his pocket and we have bread in the house.

After visiting with my son the teacher and his family, my son, the FedEx driver called and I talked to my son, Kathy’s dad today.
We watched TV together tonight, yes we have become couch potatoes.

November 10, 2009

With much effort we were able to get up and go swimming. The pool is old and there are no steps down into the pool. You must go down a ladder to get into the pool and out the same way. There is a chair to lower someone into the pool that needs assistance, but it is out of order. An aerobic class was being held in the shallow part of the pool so we went to the deep end. It was 5 feet deep, meaning I couldn’t touch, but Paul was able to touch. We spent about 30 minutes moving in the water and then we went to the hot tub for a relaxing soak.

We got home and we both were extremely tired. I decided to rest for just a minute. Before I fell asleep my sister called. She was in the car waiting for her client to get back so we had a chance to talk. After she hung up I put on my earphones to listen to my healing meditation. I don’t remember even moving, I was asleep.

Today was the day before payday so we just kind of vegged at home. Paul made a yummy spaghetti dinner. You will never guess what we did tonight. Yep, it was a TV night for sure.
I did actually make Paul some cookies.

November 11, 2009

Paul’s check didn’t come. We had hoped it would be posted last night, but it wasn’t. We played on the computer and watched TV. We had enough gas to get to the station to buy gas, but until the check comes, we are at home. I have not really felt well all week. I sleep a lot.

November 12, 2009

Paul’s check was here, finally. He ordered my book, his gift to me and we ordered the CD’s of the Davici Brainwaves. Paul paid the cell phone bill. We ate at Subway in Wal-Mart before going shopping.

While shopping I try to keep track of what I am spending. I usually do pretty well. Wal-Mart had vegetables on sale so I bought 10 each of corn, beans and peas. I did notice that the cans are smaller. There is no longer 16 ounces in a can but 14.something. I picked up Marie Calendar’s sweet and sour chicken and rice and chicken pot pies. When we checked out I realized that we had spent too much, couldn’t even get gas at this point. Paul had gotten $20 change, so he put the twenty into the tank of the car.

When we got home, we checked the balance on the bank account. Zero. Ok, we are at home for the next week.

Paul and I were exhausted from the shopping trip. As soon as the groceries were in the house and I had put away all of the perishables, we took naps. See, I am sleeping a lot.

For dinner we had the sweet and sour chicken, and we, wait for it, we watched TV. We were on our computers for a while and then bed.

I sent my sister a twilight comment to myspace. She is a Twilight fanatic.

November 13, 2009

Kathy’s dad called this morning very upset. His wife’s lawyer filed a motion to have his attorney taken off of the case. She went to the attorney and asked for pro bono help with the divorce. The lawyer said no, but now she wants to use that to slow the divorce.

I talked and talked to my son today, one to calm him and two to make him understand that he should not talk to his wife or any of the people she lives with. If his wife needs him, she needs to go through the lawyer.

I talked to my sister; I had her look at the comment. I know that she doesn’t check myspace very often.

Tonight we had pot pies for dinner, Paul fixed them. We watched TV and I read a Jack Weyland book on line. It was very good. I read the entire book tonight. Well I started this afternoon and then read it all before bed. With our books still packed, and we have no place to unpack the books, the only books out are the Twilight Saga. Paul has been on a continuous loop with them, but I really needed something new to read.

I reminded Paul that it was his brother’s birthday and he called him. He left the message on the phone. His brother was not at home.

I have made a discovery, I like to blog. I am taking a break from the 29 gift site. I will drop in from time to time, but I have found it very hard to stay current with everything since we had such a surge in numbers. I really do enjoy the writing, and while I enjoy the comments of my friends, it hasn’t been the most important aspect of the experience. So I have decided to blog here. I have no followers and I expect none, except my sister.

She will read my blogs, but she wouldn’t sign up for a blog space herself, so I won’t be getting comments. I think my writing has become stale, so I am challenging myself to keep writing until it is interesting again.

November 14, 2009

This morning I woke at 6. I came into the computer and was checking out a few things when I read my horoscope for the day.


A whole bunch of explosive energy is on the way, so get ready for some fireworks! Today's frenetic energy will urge you to make some changes to your future goals. You'll also feel the need to associate with a whole new group of peers. If that's the case, try to ease away from your current crew gently -- or offer to take them along. Either way, you'll enjoy the momentum of new blood.

This just enforced my decision to start blogging here. I will add some of the stories that I have written before and then just keep my journal going.

When Paul checked the mail, my 29 Day Gift Book had arrived already. I will save it for tomorrow. It seems like a good way to spend a Sunday afternoon, curled up with a movie.

Paul and I took a ride in the country today. I like to get to know an area that I live in. So, we took off and rambled around the country side. It was a nice way to spend the afternoon.

Then we stopped at Wal-Mart for milk and came home for dinner. We watched some of the shows we had recorded, one more quiet evening watching Monk.

A student called and asked a few questions about Reiki. We will send her Reiki tonight before bed.

Tribute to My Dad

November 11, 2008

Today is Veterans’ Day. My Dad was a MM 1st Class in the Navy during WWII. It is my intention to share some about him.

I have never written about Dad. I am afraid that I wouldn’t be able to honor him in the way he should be honored. He was my hero, my confidant, my teacher, my conscious, and my rock. My Dad was a man of few words really. The words he said I took to heart.

He instilled in me many of my values by his example. He never missed a day of work. He was always the man to go see if you had some problems, he would listen. He never did anything unethical, let alone illegal. He was never knowingly unkind. I have seen him drive 50 miles one way to right a mistake that the store made in his favor. He always was calm. I knew he would always be there for me.

He was the most fair and equal parent I had ever known. He didn’t do the exact same thing for each of us. He explained we were all different; therefore he would do different things with each of us. But his time was equally divided. He went to all of my speech tournaments, all of my brother’s games, and supported my younger sister in her Girl Scout activities. I am not at all sure where he found all of the time to do what he did for us. He let us pick our activities and let us expand our minds and encourage us to use our hearts to choose the path we wanted to take.

He always supported his kids. I remember one particular day like it was a snapshot in my mind. Dad was sitting on the couch watching a football game. I was practicing, Boil, Boil toil and trouble for school. I was walking back and forth in the living room and using my best theater voice and gestures to get the part down right. My brother was playing the clarinet. He was standing in front of a mirror in the living room watching his favorite person in the world play. He was not yet playing well. My sister was just trying to talk to anyone. She is seven years younger than I am so of course she was annoying. She was describing her fabulous day at school, and didn’t mind the noise competition in the room. I stopped for a minute and looked at the scene in our living room. There was Dad moving his head around to see the game past his noisy children. I asked him if we should leave and let him watch his game. His answer was no. We were in the living room, living. That was where he wanted us, noise and all.

The Universe gave me my Dad, and I am forever grateful